Valentine's day? My foot!

Of all my life these years, 29 years; 2013 is the worst feelings Valentine's day I had ever felt. I hate it ttm!!!!!!!!!!!! I cried in public again. :'( Why? Why? Why I can't communicate with him?!!!!! Why must he mention her name?! N that I resemble her attitude?! I fucking hate him!!!!!!!!! Why he want spoil my Valentine's day?!!! I didn't ask for a bouquet of flowers. A simple stalk satisfy me already. Why a simple romance you also don't have?! How much does a stalk of flower cost? A pack of cigar? Or few millions?! Totally upset to the max. Very very very saddddddd :(((((((

Daddy God, can you tell me what should I do? I feel very helpless :( I am jobless now. Bills will pile up next month. Why am I short-tempered? Can change away my temper? I hate myself for throwing tantrum easily. I hate myself to give attitude. I hate myself to be sensitive. God, grant me a gracious heart please. Change away my heart.

Psalm 23.


xoxo