whole day i dare not to call him. because i know i'm drunk and msg him silly things. i said before, we'll only quarrel cos' i'm drunk. i'm waiting for his calls~~~ but he never.................................. so sad. :(
then around 7+ i text him....
Baby,i don't dare to call u. ystd i drank quite alot,thus will send u e sms. felt so stupid of me. but i'm jus afraid of losing u. i don't wan jus say Sorry. but i dunno wad else to say. :(
he never reply, neither did he call back....
maybe he's sleeping.. this's what i thought.
then around 8.30pm, he calls. asked if i want go chalet anot. his friend's birthday mah. i says ok. n he came fetch me after my work...
throughout the night, we never mention anything about yesterday's sms. i'm avoiding, so i never say a word. then he tell me how busy when he reached factory till delivery. suddenly his left eye kana ulcer again. *he has perfect eye-sight. just don't know why he'll kana ulcer. because doctor says ulcer is cause by contact lenses* this makes him even frustrated. went TTSH but hospital says appointment full, gotta wait till dec. he's even angry already. no choice he went family clinic for antibiotics & eyedrop.
upon hearing what he said, i felt so guilty sia..... i'm like creating troubles/quarrels. adding burden to him.
sometimes i really feel that i'm not a good girlfriend. well, i always know that i don't know how to be a good girlfriend too. what to do... hee. can someone teach me? or tell me how to make bf feels loves,cares from gf huh?
tomorrow evening going to his friend's baby's full month. he's working tomorrow. he'll go home catch some nap before meeting me. should i go over his place or should i wait for him to fetch me? i'm thinking.......
hmmm, next tuesday buiehz gathering has been confirmed. :) i asked them for suggestion on where to go for dinner. then mike replied,depends what u all want to eat. i would really appreciate for u telling me a place. not throw me back questions... Pengz.
tony says he totally has 0 suggestion. jinhui no mention at all. alamak! u all want budget dinner, yet never give suggestions. then when me & eileen chose the place, u all complain very expensive. what u all want? sigh....
i'm going to bed...
tomorrow i want to go jogging. i'm really getting fatter. my t-shirts like so tight already. once put on weight, no much clothes to wear. SI BEH SIANZ AH!
i looked back my past photos.. how come 2 years back i can be alot less ba than now huh??? then from the photos, i can see how i getting fatter sia... ALAS!
issit because 2yrs ago i've dance shows everyday? i can even eat supper after work. Now lei? never eat supper also fat lor. what's more, now i never dance already lor..... always drinking alcohol, which makes me very very very fat!
this part for my 6mei.
just read ur blog,u complain so much...wait tio pok ah!
eh u spend money like running tap hor. mid month don't complain no money huh. Well, now u still young, only 18years old. has got many choices to choose from. But, whatever career u want in future, most importantly isu must have a better certificate, your education. afterall, that piece of paper is really important. go find out and don't waste time.
I'm writing off le...
Nitez ya. :)
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